Starting a new blog, intended to be personal in nature, has taken a while to come to fruition. My other site is primarily about exploring the impact that environment (including culture) has on neuroplasticity, neurotransmitters, hormones, gene expression, etc. It has provided a necessary outlet but in some respects it tends to limit me in self-expression.
For the last several months I’ve felt a stirring to evolve in the blogosphere. I want to materialize personal thoughts, ideas, and creativity I generally keep to myself, or have only shared with a chosen few. A few postings (perhaps more than a few) may take certain readers out of their comfort zone. They won’t always be inspiring or uplifting, but they will be real.
Moving forward in this endeavor feels like I’m on a roller coaster ride, with surges of adrenaline followed by a sense of vulnerability and regret. Also, comments from grammar police can attribute to future writer’s block—making the journey of articulation a bit intimidating.
Until I joined the blogosphere, I didn’t realize the courage and tenacity it took to blog considering all the ups and downs, sometimes accompanied by a soup of biochemicals that can make one feel queasy. The following two quotes eloquently capture my sentiments about self-expression via blogging:
“How strangely do we diminish a thing as soon as we try to express it in words! We believe we have dived down to the most unfathomable depths, and when we reappear on the surface, the drop of water that glistens on our trembling finger-tips no longer resembles the sea from which it came. We believe we have discovered a grotto that is stored with bewildering treasure; we come back to the light of day, and the gems we have brought are false–mere pieces of glass–and yet does the treasure shine on, unceasingly, in the darkness!”
~ Maurice Maeterlinck, The Treasure of the Humble, trans. Alfred Sutro (1899)
“There is immeasurably more left inside than what comes out in words. Your thought, even a bad one, while it is with you, is always more profound, but in words it is more ridiculous”
~ Fyodor Dostoevsky
To my fellow risk-takers, thanks in advance for coming along for the ride. Hope you like roller coasters.
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